Saturday, August 20, 2011

I'm in bed by Ten.

Chilled music keeps me going, Penpal - Penpal, if you have the time to look it up.

Jay is always going to be my best friend because he understands the same shit as me. He is where I am in my life, but on a different scale. We might be in different classes, but we level up just the same. If relating it into my own terms for you to understand makes it clearer, so be it.

Drink to wake up, drink to stay clear.

Still searching for love? I give the fuck up.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

twice

What do you live for?

I live for droned, methodical, hypnotic music. Piano melody, stringed undertone, and muscle shaking low bass. Those goosebumps as they roll up your thighs, the front of your arms, the crease in your spine. But at the same time, I struggle for complication and deep thought in the mix. Too many things going on at once makes a listener an adept for love. I settle for nothing less than extraordinary, entrepreneurship for wonder.

I work past limits; there's no room for them in my body. After exhaustion, I keep composure. Straight face, clear thoughts. I work for peace and calmness always.

I love cold days, with warm winds. Rustled leaves falling, quiet nature moaning in my ear.

I'm psychotic for new material to ponder about: Deep, mindfucked stories, catalytic motivationals, and 'till you die hope and endurance. Digging through the trash of mainstreamed propaganda and single-sided lifestyles. 


Compulsive to share, not a response. Are they alive?

Who do you live for?

Is there a reason? I work for an imagination of love in my mind more often these days, I fear. I may be alone for a very long time. The ghost seems a more psychopathic lover.

Evolving into a silent character in the shadows, but ever changing. Colossus in my mind, I will become meek and humble.

Friday, August 5, 2011

SO

It goes, everyday it seems. my apathetic mood-killer alternative life style brings down another one.


I've got the best of friends in the shadows.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Yesterday

I didn't get enough sleep, and I blamed that as the cause. I felt something strange when I came back to my room. It wasn't that I hadn't been there for a while, and had a only a memory of what it looked, felt, and smelled like. It was indefinitely because I was alone. Finally not around people.

I was angry at first, then I went into acceptance.

So it goes with everything, it seems now-a-days.