restless

My mind has been at war with each other for a bit.

As in who am I to give my love to?

I haven't really given any consideration at all to my actions, since I've been winging it for a week or so. Words may blurt out, affections may take place, who knows.

I picked up Dead Space 2, and to say the least, it's scaring the shit out of me. It reminds me off the time watching my brother play Resident Evil, or Silent Hill when I was like 10. So scary.

Other than that, I've been fairly busy with life: Working, Running, Eating, and Reading. I'm starting to go a little OCD with my diet that I'm trying but it's okay. I haven't drank any carbonated drinks in weeks. My leg was acting up a little when I was running today, but hopefully that'll go away.

Besides that, I'm on day 3 of my celibacy strike which I hope at least lasts a month, hopefully more.

And as a last note, I have this to think about:

Do you think God wanted us to live this long?

I mean, it's an obvious yes since we still are. But why do I have to clean out my ears from earwax?